hi kashh happy birthday!! 19 and still a minor. last year of adolescence mo na pero bata ka pa rin whahahaha. "minor", if i remember correctly.. that was the first ragebait we kept throwing at each other aside from middle-fingering during our early weeks nung first sem. bakit ba kasi 'yan 'yung pumasok sa isip mo bwahahaha. but behind all those teasings, we didn't realize that was where it all started—our closeness. siguro kung hindi mo 'ko inaasar noon (kung hindi ka lang masama at bully), hindi tayo close ngayon. hindi kita magagantihan at maaasar pabalik.. if you had just shut your mouth. and if none of that had happened, this friendship wouldn't have happened either. that's why i'll always be grateful for those seemingly small moments because they turned into something much bigger. you've became a friend, a listener.

but i could say you're not just a great friend but a great person. i hope you know that. and knowing you, i know u would love this because you're very appreciative. ganyan kita nakilala. so in this day, i wanna say thank you for everything. like everything, kasi you probably don't realize how much of an impact you've had on others. at sa akin.. you've always hyped me up, supported me, and telling me that you were proud kahit wala naman akong ginagawa. and sometimes i just wonder why you see things in me that even i, couldn't see. but i've come to realize that you're the kind of person who sees the good in others even when they can't see it themselves.

alam mo ba? someone once told me that everyone has their own potential even themselves did not know exist until they meet certain people who help them unlock it. and you.. you somehow had a key and unlocked something in me—i became more open. i never thought i could share or open up things to others but there i was on ig, randomly yapping about my life's "what could've beens" to you. honestly, i wasn't really looking for someone to fully understand me, just someone who listens enough just to make me feel heard. pero ikaw..hindi ka lang nakinig, you understood every part of me, then eventually in one moment, i learned you were a safe space.

i guess that was one of your potential— unlocking someone else's. maybe that's why i see you as something like an element. you're really a sun, shedding light into the life of others just by being there. i mean, your presence is so bright that everyone feels warm beneath your rays. kaya i won't take all the credit for being able to take these small steps toward externalizing because you were one of the people who made me feel safe enough to do so. yan 'yung natutunan ko.

andami ko nang sinasabi hehe.

and one last thing, i may not know you that much (yet), but i'm sure you have so much more than any of these surface we've seen so far. and just a reminder.. even if you've gone quiet and stopped lifting others up, or being the sunshine you used to be, that doesn't change anything. you're still a great person. you'll always have that light! and no one can take thata away from you. so yeaa, all i wish is for you to have a happy and peaceful life.. na you may continue to meet people who appreciate you the way you deserve. and please, no birthday blues today. this day is yours, sana happy kaa 💙

again, happy birthday kash!

xo, xyrell